Monday, September 24, 2018

Diabetes, Baby's Weight and Baby Shower updates!!!

In my last post, i mentioned that my baby didn't gain any weight in 2 weeks and i was really worried about it.. Turns out, it wasn't a big deal. Infact it was good that my baby didn't gain much weight.. Thats coz, my surrogate is diagnosed with gestational diabetes.

What this means, is that, some women develop high sugar levels only during pregnancy and mostly during 3rd trimester. And after the delivery their sugar levels come back to normal. High sugar levels only affect the baby if the levels are too high and uncontrolled. This results in big and heavy baby.. and due to rapid weight gain the baby is usually delivered early (before 38 weeks) which is not good.. Baby's most organs are well developed by 38-39 weeks.. so, delivery before that means, baby will have to stay in NICU for few days or weeks and will have some jaundice after birth. Though jaundice is very common and easily treatable.. i feel its better if we can avoid it by delivering the baby after 38 weeks.

So, basically, now we have to take care that the baby does gain weight, but in a steady pace. If  the sugar level gets too high, it will affect the baby in a way that, even if he is all fine after delivery, he will get diabetes in future.

2 days ago, i got to know that my doctor has started insulin shots for my surrogate. I got a bit worried for a minute.. but then i thought.. may be this is just a safety measure. And when i talked to my doctor, she said the same. Its a safety measure and don't worry, the insulin won't get inside the baby, as it never crosses the placenta.

Sigh !! I think there is nothing to worry now !!๐Ÿ˜Š


23rd Sept. 2018

Since we are in our 7th month now, its time for baby shower..!
Well, not my baby shower, my surrogate's shower !
I got some fruits, dry fruits, flowers, a kurti for my surrogate.. I called her up and invited her to the hospital at around 3pm.. It was visarjan day, so we knew she would be busy in the morning for the pooja.

Anyway, we reached the hospital at 3pm.. went inside and i saw my surrogate dressed in a beautiful sari.. Perfectly dressed for godh bharai. We went inside the room where she will be admitted the day after .. I took some kumkum, applied tilak to her, gave her the fruits and all... in her pallu.. and showered some flower petals and rice grains on her.

To tell you the truth, i felt a little weird while doing all this.. Me performing the rituals of baby shower.. on my surrogate who is carrying my baby..!!  I did feel like something was taken away from me.. But anyway, my surrogate is really sweet. As soon as her's was done.. she told me.. now i will do ur godh bharai...

She made me sit down, applied kumkum and showered flower and rice grains on me.. and did that hands gesture where u take the varna and break ur hand's knuckles around ur head (i don't know what it is really called) ๐Ÿ™ˆ

That was a really sweet gesture..

I didn't feel any craving for my baby shower as it was very clear in my mind.. im not pregnant, so i am not supposed to have a baby shower. But only when i was performing the rituals on her is when i felt really weird.. But anyway, it was very considerate of my surrogate to do a mini baby shower for me.. I am very thankful for having her.

Today, she will be admitted to the hospital, and i am sure the hospital staff will take good care of her and my baby.. Just less than 80 days to go.. !!!

Tuesday, September 18, 2018

28 weeks.. Welcome Third Trimester...

18th Sept. 2018

10am.. Went to the hospital for our regular checkup.. Since the last scan was very good and baby was showing 2 week ahead growth.... As usual i was excited to see my baby surprise me with amazing growth and weight this week too..

Today was one of those days when we had to wait the longest for our appointment.. meanwhile me n my surrogate were chatting about her health which is great btw.. and then again i tried to touch her belly and again.. felt nothing.. Today i got really really disappointed.. what the hell !! I just wanna feel my baby once... why is he not responding when i touch..

I guess my feelings were pretty evident on my face.. so my surrogate took me inside a waiting room and lifted her kurta while lying down on the bed and told me to carefully look at her belly.. She then tapped her belly a few times.. and there.. i saw it.. i saw the kick !!! Yay.. finally.. i got something !๐Ÿ˜ƒ

Later, we went in for our ultrasound and i was expecting a weight of atleast 1.5kgs.. since last time it was 1.2kgs.. The doctor went through all measurements.. checked the heartbeat...



And then she said.. 1.25kgs hai.. ! I was shocked.. no weight gain in 2 weeks..??๐Ÿ˜ฑ I got super super worried.. ๐Ÿ˜จ

Later.... when we had a chat with the doctor, she said.. Don't worry.. this is absolutely normal.. in last appointment the baby showed more than expected growth.. so it is absolutely normal for the weight gain to slow down as long as all the measurements are increasing and there is a healthy heartbeat and baby movement.  

Well, she was right, i checked the measurements from the last appointment and the baby does show a growth in size..  I took a sigh of relief.. !! (Typical mummy wala tension chalu ho gaya hai๐Ÿ˜†)

Later we talked about my surrogate's admission to the hospital. She will be spending her last trimester in the hospital until delivery time.. This is done to avoid any emergencies and to take good care of the surrogate and my baby until delivery time. My doctor also told me that once the baby is delivered, i will have to stay in the hospital with the baby for a week or so.. 

I was like... Great !!! I am ready to stay anywhere with my baby...  Plus this way i will also get the hospital feel as if i have delivered my baby ๐Ÿ˜!!! Hehe..

Tuesday, September 4, 2018

26 or 27 weeks !!??... Looks like a "motu" baby :P

4th September 2018..

7 a.m... i woke up suddenly coz of a dream..
Since last few months i have been seeing vivid dreams regarding my baby and surrogacy..
but since last few weeks its about just one thing... Me not being pregnant... !

7-8 friends of mine are pregnant right now.. with almost the same due date as mine.. I have seen their pictures showing off their beautiful belly.. In my today's dream i saw all those ladies talking to each other about their pregnancies.. and looking at each other's bellies.. and when they came to me... all of them said.." Oh..you don't have a pregnant belly like us".. that too in a mean way ..๐Ÿ˜‚
crazy dreams !!!

I know none of my friends are going to say that to me ever... but these dreams are so dramatic.. ๐Ÿ˜†

But then it hit me.. somewhere within me i feel incomplete.. and sad for myself.. i still feel like a failure.. even though i know.. and pratik has told me that i am not..  Taking the decision of surrogacy does not make me a failure... as per pratik and my parents.

But..i dont know why... i still feel like i am incomplete..๐Ÿ˜Ÿ

Anyway..
10 a.m.... we went for our appointment..  And yes.. again saw that beautiful belly of my surrogate๐Ÿ˜”

As the doctor was doing the scan.. i immediately noticed that the baby looks bigger.. earlier, i could easily see his body on the screen.. but now i just cant make out what part is what.. everything looks so big and does not fit in the screen anymore.. As i was looking.. doctor said.. Baby weighs 1.2kg !!!!! ๐Ÿ˜ฒ๐Ÿ˜ฒ๐Ÿ˜ฒ She said.. motu baby hai ๐Ÿ˜

I was shocked and happy at the same time.. i was expecting a weight of around 800 grams... but oh my sweet baby.. looks like u r going to come out very very chubby ๐Ÿ’—๐Ÿ’—


Since the weight and height of baby is bigger now... the baby measures a little over 27 weeks !!! wow.. we were supposed to be 26 !

Woww.. i am so happy with the growth..  Can't wait to hold my chubby baby...
Less than 99 days to go... !!!๐Ÿ˜€

37 weeks... Baby boy is here !!!

20th Nov. 2018 After the last scan, it looked like 24th was the day when my baby is supposed to be born.. but few days ago, i got a call ...